JULY 25, 2009.
around 10pm.
4 sun-to-sun calls.
yea baby! :)
I was sooo happy that night. Imagine, 4 calls. Muntik ko na yung ikamatay ha! Buti nlang walang panlima, or else, maybe I was caught dead. haha. lol.
We talked as if we real good friends. We talked na parang wala lang. But that's okayy. I think its better nga eh. Pero may mga tanong siya. Dko nasagot. Why? Maybe because i'm not that confident to say my answers. Maybe I was too weak. Or maybe, I was just afraid that he won't react and response the way I want it to be.
So, e2 na yung mga bonggang-bonggang statements niya.
1. "
Ayaw mong maging concern ako sayo? Ha?". Tapos may follow-up na, "
Matulog kana. Late na masyado oh".
------oh
INSPIRASYON, e2 na sagot ko :: "
Suuus. Syempre gusto kong supermega concern ka sakin. Kahit di pa tayo. Ok na un sakin. Gustong gusto ko yun. Masayang masaya ako kapag ganon. As iiiin.:)2. "
Wag mo na kasi akong alalahanin. Gabi na oh. Late na. Matulog ka na sabi".
------oh
INSPIRASYON, e2 na sagot ko :: "
Isipin mo naman. Pano ako di mag-aalala sa'yo? You're out there hanging out with your friends. Ok lang naman sana, pero ikaw na rin may sabi. Late na. dba dba. And look, nag iinuman kayo. I don't even know what time you're going home. Ni hindi ko alam kung san ka uuwi. YES, maybe I don't have the right to know such informations. Pero kasi, gusto ko talaga malaman. Concern ako. And I hope you know that".
PS para kay
INSPIRASYON.
Pasabta kuno ko beh. Para sa asa man nang concern2 epek nimo? Nganung ana man?
-ounce.
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Why would god want to hurt me so bad?
Does he know how much it hurts to be missing you?
I just heard this song kaninang lunch time when one of my friends tried to play it again and again and again. Was it a sign? a message? or maybe another start for something new? Because there was something I knew that caused too much hurt just before I heard this song.
"Missing You" daw. Sino na-mimiss ko? Oo, siya. Si INSPIRASYON ko. Di pa rin siya bumabalik, and according to my friend, "DI NA TALAGA SIYA BABALIK". ((Nakausap nga pala ni INSPIRASYON si friend that time.)) That almost tore me apart, honestly speaking. I can't believe it! **ampooocha** I could still remember how he told me that he likes me, and that he wants me to be his girl. I could still remember how he would reach for my hand. I could still remember how he made me happy. I just don't know what happened. If there would only be another chance for me to prove that I really do like him this much, I'd spend each day and each night holding his hand just like what I always wanted.
"How come you act like this
Like you just don't care at all?
Para kay
ounce.
I don't know what I'm feeling everytime I see you. Should I be happy that I saw you? Or should I feel sad for you're not with me? Sometimes I feel pity for myself for being such a great LOSER. Yeah loser, from that very day I LOST YOU. You know, every time you pass by me, I always follow you through my eyes. And on my mind, I want to run after you, lock my arms on your waist just like a child asking her dad not to leave. And then I would say, "Bumalik ka na, pwede?". I think I can even kneel down in front of you and ask for another chance. Corny dba? haha. But that's true. Sooo true.
-ounce.
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Inspirasyon. Nawawala ang "INSPIRASYON" ko.
Ang hirap mag-aral kung walang inspirasyon.
Magkwentuhan tayo.:)
Nitong huling linngo, super "inspired" ako. Lagi akong masaya kasi madalas kaming magkita. Buo ang araw ko kapag nakakasama ko siya. Isang araw eh nagising ako at naisip kong SIYA na marahil si INSPIRASYON ko. Sabay kaming kumain. Nahawakan ko na ang palad niya. May mga napag-usapan na kaming mga bagay-bagay na walang kabuluhan. Nasubukan na naming umuwi ng "late" dahil nasiyahan kami sa pakikipag-kulitan sa isa't isa.
Masaya ako kapag magkasama kami ni INSPIRASYON ko. Isang buong linggo akong naging masaya dahil sa kanya. Oo, isang linggo lamang.
Noong Sabado din mismo ay pinili niyang maging malaya at itigila na ang kung anumang nasimulan namin. Sabi niya pa, hindi raw kami compatible. Ang sakit, sooooobra. Pinusta ko lahat ng meron ako para lamang kay INSPIRASYON sa pag-aakalang malaki ang mapapanalunan ko. Pero wala. Talo ako, at hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko dahil hindi ko na mababawi ang kung anumang nawala sa'kin. Talo ako. Ang galing niya. Natalo niya ako. Tsk!
Well, nevermind. Magkaibigan nalang kami ngayon at nasabi niyang mas gusto niya iyon. Kanina lang ay tinawagan niya ako. Madami siyang sinabi. At isa lang ang hinihiling ko sa ngayon. Sana ay huwag niyang kunin ng tuluyan ang aklat niya sa locker ko, dahil sa paraang iyon ko na lamang siya maaaring makita at makausap.
Mahaaaaaal ko siya. un un.
PS para sa mga taong nakakita at nakakakilala sa INSPIRASYON ko:
Nawawala si INSPIRASYON ko. Tulungan niyo `kong maibalik siya sa'kin.
at isa pang
PS para kay INSPIRASYON ko:
Sana kapag nabasa mo `to ay magbago ang isip mo. Alam kong nagkamali din ako. SORRY. At gusto kong malaman mo na maghihintay ako sa pagbalik mo. Gimingaw na ko nimo.:)
-ounce.
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The only
permanent thing
in the world
is
CHANGE.
I got only one thing here.
Bakit ang tao, pag nalaman niyang sobrang mahal na mahal mo siya eh bigla nalang siya magbabago? Magbabago, as in maggiging masama na siya. :(
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blog blog blog.
one of my classmates had mentioned about BLOGSPOT. and so i remembered my site, wherein i used to post my daily encounters regarding school, friends, etc.:)
so from now on, or shall i say tomorrow, i'll be activating my site 'AGAIN'. kasi kasi, gusto kong panindigan ang sinabi ko dati na kikita rin ako dito (tulan ng sabi ni Eirven).
update pdate lang. be seeing you all tomorrow.:)
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